fences are too thin, i can't sit on them :/ how, bio or econs?
i think i need to get off the wall soon.
i'm humpty dumpty.
either way, it's going to be a great fall, don't you think?

): painful painful.

Aha i think the posting is super screwed :O
How come like that ah.
Haha but why should i complain? I just witnessed and experienced another miracle :D Thanks to God :) And to my dearest dearest St Nicks that has been a second home to me since forever :) Juniors, you don't know how lucky you are to still be in St Nicks :( I love the culture and the people there. Man, i bet school would be weird without all my friends whom most have been stuck with me since primary school :( And funny teachers like doristan :D Aha oh well, time to discover more of the world.
Now that i'm in school again, i'm going to work harder (not stone for half a day anymore) and prove my detractors wrong - that you don't have to score 25-something or 26-something to go to a good faculty. Or be in a top jc. You'll see.
Chengmei will one day be plucking out your teeth!
D: i must wake up early tomorrow!

Hello person, please stop trying to be nice because you are only being annoying. Who actually counts the number of times you yawn and finds it funny? Well, then later irritating. I'm sorry i can't really stifle yawns, nor stop them from occuring. Perhaps it is disrespectful and really rude but it's not like i wasn't paying attention. I was listening. Anyway you listen with your ears, does it matter if your eyes are closed? You do this everyweek, tell me that you would be rich if you collected a dollar everytime i yawned. Yeah, go ahead and be filthy rich. Aye but if you were to count the number of yawns, that means you would be staring throughout. That sucks okay. Do me a favour - stop doing that. Sorry, not in the best of moods today. Isn't it vaguely hilarious that the very person who previously (deliberately?) went about trying to piss people off is still pissing people off, though unintentional? Maybe i'll accept your offer of friendship, but haha, highly unlikely.
Argh :(
I just finished reading Have A Little Faith. I wonder how often does Mitch Albom cry because his thoughts put into pages has made people all over the world cry for someone they have never met :O that book is splendid. You would be a fool not to read it haha :)

Haha class clique chalet on wed and thursday :D It was fun! Hoho i need to increase my vocab bank, 'fun' is such a -.- word. Anyway we went to W.W.W again! Haha i love the family ride :) And the river but definitely not the slide-up. That very evil lifeguard kept stalling and he looked like it was deliberate. My heart cannot take okay :D Heh we didn't get to bbq in the end because the otah auntie left so early :O But dinner was still okay :) The fried rice with kfc is gooooood (when you are damn hungry at 10pm). Aha i shall never play another game with them!  How come my forfeits are so disturbing??? Poor chengmei :( Oh neither shall i bowl ever again. Haha my balls have an affinity with the gutter -.- while the people in the lanes beside us are like !!! ultra pro :O But i like the arcade! We should go there more often! Pearlyn and i are ultra cool at the basketball thingy :) We almost beat the high score twice! Amazing!
However the not so amazing part is, i didn't sleep much that day and now i'm attacked by pimples :/ Gross. I need to annihilate them >:(

Haha yesterday was more than just great :D I seriously had a lot of fun :D Heh i love birthdays! Alright, actually i didn't really look forward to growing older but i did look forward to being showed how much i mean to some people :) The recess clique and i went to Wild Wild Wet yesterday and it was terribly fun. Heh the lazy river, the family ride thingum and that flip-up thing too haha :) Woah that flip up thing can really make my heart stop :O Super scary but exhilarating :D And that float! I almost died just carrying it up :O Haha and the family ride :) were we that heavy? I'm sunburnt now (again -.-) and my hair's more frizzy than normal but all this are worth it :) We were laughing most of the time and i really appreciate how we are so comfortable around each other :D Oh and thank you very much for the presents! i especially love the 'chocolate'! Geez i got tricked again :O lousy me :) I have found friends that i know will be sticking by me for a long long time.
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR MAKING MY 17TH BIRTHDAY SO SPECIAL :) I REALLY LOVED IT. AND I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO. (i think they won't see this though) A THOUSAND PATS AND HUGS FROM ME! TAKE IT AS PAYMENT FOR YOUR SERVICES!
Oh yeah and my family too! They wanted to go out for dinner but i was still at Pasir Ris at idk what time :D So they ditched the idea but still cut cake with me. Ahh the cake was so thick and creamy :O I'm going to getting sicker haha :) And FATTER. I like my presents :) I have hello kitty! Haha i appreciate my family too, who has stuck by me all this years while tolerating my bad moods and unreasonable outbursts :O Thank you :) I love you guys too! Oh and thanks for trying to teach plaster what birthdays were, although she looked bewildered :D
And all the other people who have been nice enough to remember and wished me, thank you! Haha my smses aren't free btw! :D
I need to get my appeal form later :/ Eeyur must travel :O Haha and plaster sitting beside me and watching me :) Adorable. I adore her :)

I just woke up to the home phone ringing and weiping called to make me talk to the evil ajc band people :O I'M NOT GOING FOR THE AUDITIONS HOHOHO! Really, i have like some phobia that will take five to ten years to overcome :/ Btw, that fear isn't even irrational. I have every reason to not come back :D I'm going back to sleep :D
I really need to go to school and sleep in class. Lazing around like some pig is really BORING. Oh i don't know what subject combinations to take now :( Haha i need to either sacrifice bio or geog :/ Which i like both. WHY IS CHEM SO CRUCIAL WHEN I HATE IT TO THE CORE? Poofy. Oh and plaster walks around the house like a human. She makes noises and shifts stuff about. Many times she has startled me :/ It's a little unsettling when you think that nobody's at home. Haha how uncat-like.

Hey, you, stop being such a snob and thinking that you are almighty and fantastic okay. Perhaps life's perfect for you but that isn't a reason to look down on others who has it tougher. Maybe i'll never prove to you that i'm better. Maybe i'll remain in the so-called 'gutter' for the rest of my life. But so what? That does not entitle you to ridicule me and all my friends whom you consider 'trouble kids'. My tolerance control is only so high. I will one day really lash out at you and tell you that even if you have the brains, that doesn't mean anything. It doesn't mean anything to me.
Who says that the ghetto sucks?

THE DEADLINE IS APPROACHING!
AND I HAVE NOT DECIDED!
OMGAH CRAP.
WHERE SHOULD I GO?
): frustrating.

After about an hour of intense anxiety attacks (and jealousy), i got my results back. I supposed looking at my classmates who got their results back before me gave me courage to look at mine because most of them did pretty okay. I actually wanted to open it at home :O Oh well, it was better than expected. Okay but 54 points is a little high haha. However, i don't really find my results great or fantastic. I'm not complaining about it but i wished i did better. I want to retake can :( I want more A1sssssssssssss. Mine haul is so pathetic please. Haha see people, regrets when you don't study hard enough. One month is no joke :( Haha nevermind, i shall change things when i sit for the A Levels :O (Yeah right.)
Hohoho anyway i don't know where to go! I don't really think poly is an open choice. My mum might flip. I can't decided which jc to go to :/ because my friends are being split everywhere :( A lot of my friends are going top five too :D so envious of them. Hohoho cjc has so many church people! And my seniors like esther :) I'm half tempted to go there to be with esther. Haha i wished i could go to vjc and be in louise's section too. Aigoo, i don't know what to choose. But given my results, a lot of options are already closed :( Hohum, forget it, i'll think of something. Haha i think i'm going to have a bald spot from constant scratching while fretting. How exasperating.
Decisions decisions :/

Nicolette got called to go to school!
Woah she's a top student!
Ahh so jealous!
Will i get called to retake the papers again!
Noooo!
Freaking out!

In a couple of hours, i will be finding out how the next two/ three years of my life is going to be spent.
You know, funny enough i don't feel very nervous. I feel dazed and exhausted instead. Perhaps because i'm sick now ): the letal cough/flu that papa had in vietnam has found another victim. This sucks because my entire sunday was spent being lethargic and blur. Even mass (which i vowed earlier to be super attentive and pious-ish to hopefully win some favour) slogged by without me paying attention. Ahh my hands currently ache from typing, wth. I have weird bodyaches all over.
Alright, i think i feel butterflies in my stomach now. They are zipping around like huge, uncontrolled chunks of dust i see in the sunlight. Not specks. Aiyooooo i really feel like i'm going to get twenty points :/ I've been spending the last few hours pondering and trying to recall how i fared. Like i'm trying to gauge and see what i'm most likely going to get. Freak, i don't know i don't know.
I need to pray again.
I need a miracle.

*nicolette just called and said that our school did very badly :/ like only sixty plus percent had distinctions for a lot of subjects or something. I don't know how reliable her information is but if it is true (grrr!) then i would be in that thirty plus percent. Omg freeeeeakkkkkk.*

Weiping and i visited the band yesterday :) stupid joannah didn't want to come >:( and in a mock attempt to not be stopped by the security guard, we wore our pinafores. Okay, partly also because we missed it. But when i first donned it, it felt weird. Like i didn't really fit anymore ): And for the first time in my life for idon'tknowhowlong, the school building was exciting to walk in because we were lost :D Haha i would really like to go back to school, to sit/rot in class and annoy my friends to death :D and run for beehoon with fishcake. Or flee from zhuangnamei. Haha and to try to sneakily sleep in class without getting caught. Ohoh and race with sherwood's teleporting machine hahaha :) I don't even mind being the middleman for notepassing. And being attacked by post-its :) All those panic attacks when i realised i lost or forgot my worksheets.
Haha i want to go back to school :/ this transition period sucks. Blah.
Yeah and the band! So embarrassing to get caught by Ms Sia for peeping. I thought the windows were completely tinted or something :O Poof. Haha sat in and listened. They are playing fun songs! I'm so jealous now :) The section sounds okay (but i'm deaf so it's not a credible opinion). Hey sec twos, practice harder okayyyy. This is your first performance :D And sec threes too! Although i couldn't see jane nor claire clearly :/ Aha and greens, hang in there! I think the greens are good :)
Eunho makes me very very upset.

As known nationwide, the date has been fixed :( Aah i'm seriously dreading it like dammit mad. I don't know, but i think i do have an intuition (which is usually rightish) that i would do marginally atrocious. Haha my 54 points nightmare is still going strong. Sigh. I hope i get to go somewhere okay enough for society to accept. It sucks when everyone labels you stupid and you get stuck with that for life. Mummy called me yesterday to tell me about the date. And my heart (just like what clare said about hers) shrivelled up and died. Oh well, i can't do anything to change my results except pray. Frankly, i think i'm going to die. I vividly remember sitting through my amaths paper wondering why didn't i drop it. Sigh.
I'm going with the class/recess clique tomorrow to the poly open houses :) I was wondering if i actually did okay, should i go to poly? I want to take that dentistry or vetinary bioscience course. People talk about passion. I want something i have an interest for. At least vaguely. Aha but i'm not a legal adult yet so my parents still call the shots. Hoho and it's obvious where i'm heading to :/ Mummy keeps saying, "Later you will regret your decision. By then it would be too late." Well, old people know more i suppose. Aiya, no point discussing options at this point of time should my results come out and close them.
I feel like going back to sleep. The weather is perfect - cold and blustery. Ho hum, i think i might freeze though. I am going visit band later with weiping and joannah! :D *grins widely* hahaha i want to see their new practice location and catch up with trombones :D And my dearest dearest Mr Tromboney :) oh crap, but Ms Sia would be there. (heart beats erratically) She is going to slaughter me.
Meow Kitty is such an asshole ):<
She slinked into the house and fought with plaster. Then pranced out like some overweight ballerina.
Geez. May all her fur fall out and leave her stark naked in this cold weather.

HAHAHA I HAVE NO SCHOOL TODAY :D AND ZERO HOLIDAY HOMEWORK TO CRAM :)
Hmm i think because of my lack of sense of time due to my mindless idling, it doesn't feel like it's a new year to me :O everyday seems the same - boring.
Hohoho countdown party with my confi friends :) i haven't seen them in such a long time :( However minggu and i left early thanks to mass the next day >:( and haha i missed the actual countdown! I went to sleep =.= I only woke up on new year's day at 2am. Sheesh. Oh there was an av gathering :) We watched the nativity. It sounds funny when we could have watched Sex and the City but i think the movie was good. The donkey was cute. CJ junior is some daiti whiz man :O 2D'07 class gathering at Rah's house yesterday :D we had a bbq and it was pretty cool that we managed to survive (with lots of help from rah's mum and maids). The food tasted very very scrumptious. Maybe because we cooked it ourselves. I love my sec two class:D I think it's my favorite among all ten years of my schooling.
Aah are my weaknesses that obvious? How come i find people making use of it. I'm a little miffed. Hum results are coming out next week :/ the date isn't fixed yet but everyone speculating :( Omg in one month's time, my life would be totally different. Suddenly i will be in a new school with completely new people. And most of my friends that i've known for a large part of my life aren't there to experience it with me. JC sounds daunting to me :( I wish that there was a SNJC :D Haha more importantly, i half wished that that nigerian terrorist weirdo had decided to bomb the MOE building so my results would be erased or something. I don't want it back.
Alrighty, i sound like i'm having a one-side conversation with the computer. I shall stop to save my sanity.
Btw, plaster's chasing after the mouse - the one on the screen :D how adorable.

I am doing you a favour by warning you before hand: Do not read this to refrain from unnecessary torture. Spare yourself from the bore. I am typing this now because i probably won't have time tonight (HELLO LONGLOST CHURCH FRIENDS). Hahaha :D

This child has grown by leaps and bounds.
New year came not celebrated with joy and hope of a better year, but of reluctance.
Her diary drew "YEAR OF TORTURE, OMG."
School started, and the first week was spent with Awesome Unity.
Sat with Yeekeat and Eliz. Laughed half to death.
Celebrated her coming-of-age with people she loves.
Chinese new year was bland, except she screwed up mighty bad, putting out the already barely existent festive mood.
Spent term one and two overwhelmed by the impending SYF and chinese olevels.
All she wanted for syf was a gold. She got more than she desired - a gold with honours, more understanding with her sectionmates, acceptance and recognition from the snobbish school.
Nearly had to send out funeral invitations. She was drowning in the very frequent common tests, accompanied by a new english teacher. Her '7 POINTS PLEASE' campaign was snuffed out in a matter of weeks. Sitting with chunnie and janet saved her sanity.
Watched the track finals and got to watch banana-on-fire, ocean-boy and guniang joanna. Finally did not screw up.
Ended term two with little pomp. Flooded with intese nostalgia and increasing stress. Jubilate was one of the saddest performances she has ever had. As bad as the previous jubilate. POP on the last day of the term. Never had her last squad combine. Watched her juniors grow more into perfection. Overate. Stayed in a hotel room and had heaps of fun, although very tense because 1 June was approaching.
1 June came. Messed up the papers.
The june holidays came and went in a blur, with nothing done :( Sawarak was sheer boredom.
Term 3 started. Her diary was embossed with a huge 'HELL'S KITCHEN SCHOOL begins'. And yes, it was very bad. Ms Fu disappeared into thin air. This kid had more tests than TV watching opportunities. H1N1 was a pain in the butt. The countdown began. 'Prelims Party' went on for a month.
However, she still got to chill by swimming at Rah's house with the Recess Clique, carry lanterns on Mid Autum Festival, stone lots and read about Edward Cullen.
In return, she paid for it with horrendous results that nearly killed her tuition teacher.
Her favorite childhood cousin got married, affirming that bliss was existent, although rare. Yet that was not enough to spur her to study harder. Term 4 was a whirl of stress pimples, tys-es and regrets.
26 October- the start to the end of my demise and misery. Hand workouts, brain-frying and lots of grumbling occurred. But ever the day dreamer, a list of  'WHAT I WANT TO DO AFTER THIS SHIT IS OVER' popped out. Came 13 november, the Day of Liberation. Had fun with Wii :) yet still guilt-ridden from all the messed up papers.
Squad chalet at downtown. The rain came pouring down. How come her weight did not? Loves her blue badges, sacarsm, crassness and all.
Gradnight was a night to remember. It was the time of her life, even though in clothes she will never wear again. May have felt guilty about being so insanely happy.
Walked out of St Nicks one last time on Sports Day (which was pathetic). Set her eyes on the new school compound at TPY. Found it homely enough, though puny.
ZhiShu and Xiangqin's lives got invaded by her for 1.5 weeks. Suddenly, edward cullen paled in comparison (get the pun?) to Zhishu. Vietnam was fun, an eyeopener to the rural world extinct in the the gardencity, Singapore. (get the pun again?)
A section outing, class clique outings and concert at VJC (louise!) to catch up with the lovelies and christmas, in its sunny beauty and festive mood. (more overeating). Decided to invade Gominam, Shinwoo, Jeremy and Emoface's lives too :) Emotional rollercoster, that one.
Now that she done with 2009, it's finally history. However, just like history, it will be remembered. The epic year. All the ups, the downs, the lefts and rights.
Happy new year.

hello 2010, goodbye 2009.

Ohoh and a very very very big thank you to all those out there who have made my day year :) Especially to my class (4 PURTIY FTW), section and recess clique who has stood by me through loads of storms and typhoons :O Haha you know, my teacher mentioned before that the friends you make in St Nicks are probably going to be your lifelong friends. I believe so. These people i know are people who help you without expecting favours in return. They are genuine and they don't backstab :) I wish i could go back to school next week too ): My school bag which is sitting forlornly in the corner is ready for school. My files, foolscap paper, diary, report book is all inside. Alas, i no longer can return as a student anymore :(

Starstruck.
(more likely lovestruck)

alamak.

because i'm only screaming for you in my heart.

Hahaha this christmas was not very festive, exciting or joyous, for that matter. It felt almost like a normal day. Mundane. Typical. Boring. Mabye because my family doesn't really like to celebrate and feast. But it's nice to know that despite not seeing some of my friends for a long time, they have not forgotten me :) It's fairly heartwarming to receive those funny smses :D OH BUT WE DID GO SHOPPING. And Jiejie is a hardcore shopaholic (i am convinced).
Haha but i went to henderson cc yesterday (FINALLY!) to do cip for fun (: I was in charge of the ballon freenzy station and i was nearly driven insane by those rather wild kids :O almost unbearable. But i enjoyed myself anyway because the kids were quite cute, regardless of their inner demons :/ CHERMAINE DID NOT COME ):< she was the main reason i even bothered to wake up at 630am y'know. What a pity. I resolve to keep coming until she comes :D Visted godma too :) I love her food. She whips up a storm. I think if i lived with her, i might become grossly obese like that :( aha but what's life if you don't enjoy it a little?
Oh yes, i have officially finished watching You're Beautiful :) it is a really good drama, honest! It's full of climaxes every few episodes that make me super pissed at the antagonists (ie Yoo He Yi and the bloody reporter) but i was immensely engrossed in that drama. However, i feel ultra sad for gentleman (shinwoo). Wah, heart pain :/ I don't understand how gominam can fall in love with emoface when he barely made any effort to make her love him. Isn't the former (shinwoo) a much much much better option? Hmm perhaps that's why this is a drama, not a reality show. If it were, i might fly to korea to pat gentleman and sunshine kid's (jeremy) back. Oh and growl at emoface. I was extremely upset when gominam bluntly rejected gentleman :( felt so bad for him, when he had tried so hard. Sorry, i go by order of merit. By right, emoface should be last. Poofy :/ Thankfully, the earlier episodes were much funnier, lighter and cuter. I was unexplainably happy the past few days :O weird huh.
Isn't it hilarious how one's emotions are controlled by something on the computer?

What i like most about animals is that when they love you, you don't ever have to doubt it.
I don't see why you should be taking my bundle of joy away.
It isn't fair.

BEING SUNFRIED WITH THE CLASS CLIQUE TODAY WAS ONE OF THE BEST THINGS THAT HAPPENED THIS MONTH, WHICH HAPPENS TO BE ULTRA UNMEMORABLE :O
Hey building sand pears, turtles and Po is no joke when you are under the midday sun okayyyy :D but it was fun! We were having a sand ball battle :) clarisse is aggressive beneath her guniang and demure outlook after all :D and all those photos :O zero consideration for the general public on their way to the toilet :D HAHAHAHA too bad, you could join us though!
I LOVE THE CLASS CLIQUE :)
FRIENDS OF HALF A DECADE OR MORE, WE HAVE A CENTURY MORE BEFORE ANYTHING ACTUALLY DRIES OUT :)
Haha omgah, we will be freaking old and dead by then!
Pick a date for our pick-nick!

Hey blog (:
The past few days have been very unmemorable. I went to Body Worlds and it has left me agape in awe. Seriously, you ought to go for that exhibition. I was staring at the "deltoid muscle", trying to identify it in the sea of red mass. Haha it's honestly stunning. Alright, but apart from that, i've been bumming around and doing basically... nothing.
I feel like i'm wasting my very limited youth away :/ I must find something more constructive than simply reading history stuff. Aye, i realised my general knowledge is close to nil can -.- How pathetic. I didn't even know what aryans were, geez.
Oho and everyone's sick ever since we came back from the trip. I suspect papa to be the culprit, coughing without covering his mouth and thus passing his stinking germs to all of us. I was dying yesterday. But i'm fit today (: but i missed angie's bbq ):<
Mummy has been trying to convince me to pay my library loans - which is absurd because i don't remember stealing any books :O seriously. Oh she has been trying to convince me to go take a look at nyjc :/ i'm not saying i'm not interested but i don't want to make my post-results days even more painful than it will be when i realise i can't even qualify for an average jc. Aah.
YES AND PLASTER! She's sooooooooooo endearing :) she may not be human like us but she does respond humanly enough. I remember sunday when we got her back from Rah. She kept mewing at me whenever i looked away from her in the car. When i finally went, "yes plaster?" She would lean in and kiss me with her wet nose :) adorable or what.
Alright, i'm going to continue to feed my fishes on Happy Aquarium. I think i'm bordering on obsession with those ugly fishes that can blink. Yucko :/
Aha and don't forget Zhishu and Xiangqin too! Still a crazy fan :D almost an airconditioner now.

OKAY THIS FRIDAY IS GOING TO BE THE GREAT SECTION DAY!
:)